Ha! 3rd entry, whew who’d have thought that this will be really my personal online journal. Well, today I’m being an emo girl but who cares. I went to do some errands earlier with my dad and I’m happy coz we did eat at a good restaurant today but I’m a broken-hearted one coz SUBWAY which is btw my favorite isn’t available at any Petron gasoline stations in NLE. Too bad for me, but my dad promised me that we will eat when we go to Manila. Haha cheapthrills I guess? Anyway, that’s not about what I am gonna write for today. Forever? Is it really true that we can wait until forever? Or is there really such thing as forever? I don’t get it. Why’d we have to wait that long if forever doesn’t really exist? I’m not being bitter but yeah I keep on waiting since uhm like forever. So anyway enough with this bitterness. I just wanted to have a merry little christmas but how? My mum is gone, my sister is in Dubai, I don’t have a love life which is btw for years now, not just a year and I will spend my christmas with JUST my dad. That’s too depressing, ugh! Why can’t I find happiness? Or even my own fairytale? That’s all I want for Christmas, actually.
OK, I really don’t wanna give a bitterness vibes but that’s all I can give. Why does my life sucks while everyone was happy. They keep on moving forward with their own lives but look at me, I’m stuck. Is this really possible? That God doesn’t have any plans for me, seriously? I’m not complaining but come on look at me. I’ve got nothing. Please dear God, I am begging you give me a good career or a lovelife for another matter just for me to feel that there is more to this boring life. You know what all I really want is for me to be happy and to give joy to my dad. But I don’t know if I can. There is much problem and questions for me right now. I don’t know if I still can take this. I’m sorry for too much drama let’s just end this. Thank you but on my other entries maybe you will get to know me better and my probs as well. I’m not just sure yet. Hah!
Love,
Danica.✯
